Sunday, 18 April 2010

• I Wonder

  
  About three years ago I met the most amazing person on xanga. His xanga was Girls_Really_Suck. I met him through a friend, they were always talking about this amazing guy and well, I wanted to know him. I would read his xanga for awhile and I realized that he was this awesome guy. I left a comment, and the friendship started from there. He told me how he was battling cancer. And reading that broke my heart. I wanted to be there for him, I wanted him to know how much I cared. I fell for him, and him for me. I couldn't get over the fact that he had all these girls telling him how much they loved him, flirting with him constantly. I thought that if I was good enough he'd tell these girls to back off. He told me I was the one, I was the one he wanted to be with for the rest of his life. I laughed saying we haven't even met yet. He told me that my looks didn't matter, he loved my personality. I realized wow, a guy loves me for who I am. I thought it was going to be the best thing in the world. We ended up not dating because of my jealousy, but I just couldn't help but want him to say something to the other girls. I don't believe it was so much jealousy but wanting to Michael to tell people about me. We would stop talking over dumb stuff, but we knew we'd be friends for ever, maybe more in the future. He had everything going for him in this place in NJ he worked at. He said he was going to one day hopefully run the place. We would talk about everything, my family to his. I even talked to his mother. She called me Bambina, they were Italian. One day I realized wow, I have not heard from Micheal in like 3 months. I texted, I called, I e-mailed nothing. I than got a text back from a person with the number saying that this was his new phone number. I was crushed, so i e-mailed more, and more. Nothing back. This was about 7 months ago. I still haven't heard from him. I don't know where my Michael Campione is anymore. And his friend Sarah doesn't either. We text one another every so often seeing if we;ve heard from him. So far no. I don't think I'll ever hear from Michael again. I don't know what happened, where he is, or anything. All i know is I fell in love. We talked on the phone all of the time. And his friend Sarah, said she didn't know where exactly he lived, he always went to her.  I guess I really need to get this out, so maybe I can move on. I have come to terms with I don't think I'll ever hear from him again. But, I keep e-mailing hoping that maybe he's been real busy. I am worried that maybe the cancer came back, and he is having trouble beating it. I think the worst, only because he always e-mailed me back. I miss Michael, I just hope one day I'll hear from him again. I wonder if you're okay, and you miss me as much as I miss you. Where ever you are, I hope you're okay.
  
  

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