Sunday, 08 November 2009

  • Why Can't You Love Me?



    I am 19 years young. And I can honestly say my mother hates me. She the first time she left when I was in Elementary School. That was not the worst part, she took my brother and told me to go back to my dad. I was in Elementary School, and right then and their I knew you hated me. I tried to get you to like me but than you done it again. You left us when I was in Middle School. You told me my dad cheated on you, and when I was angry blaming him for you leaving us I called family on both side and they told me the kid of man my dad was. You actually made me hate him for a week, the guy that never walked out on me. How dare you do that to me I was a child, and you ruined my childhood for me. Than my grandpa died and some how you came BACK into our life and stupid me thought YESSS maybe she'll love me now. But no, all you did was cheat on my dad. But I guess the irony is you blamed him because you were doing it. You don't even understand how much you hurt my dad. He loved you unconditionally until you told me you cheated. Yes, I told him, and the truth hurts but he deserved so much better. Than my world came crashing down when Brad died but you did not even care. Than you left us my 9th grade year. You could not stand to live with us. Why was I not good enough to make things work. Why did you have to be the cheating whore that you are. But yet again you walking out was not the worst part. You than proceeded to marry the man you were cheating on my dad with. You did not even tell me that you got married. You both eloped as if you both were kids. You would of told me if you knew it was not wrong. Elda told me a month afterwards you were married, and I went home and locked myself into my room and cried. It hurt that you didn't tell me and you told Elda. She isn't even your daughter. When I tried to make thing work all the time you would always mess it up. You offered me all the jewlery  my dad ever gave you, and I said yes, I would love them. Than you had to explain to me that you did not have them. I cried again because you gave all that stuff to your mom. Why would you even offer them to me? You never called me on christmas and only celebrated about 2 with me since you left. Where was my 18th birthday phone call or even my 19th. Do you know how it feels to have your best friends or boyfriend to ask did your mom call and you have to say no she didn't. Maybe I did change my number but Tia Vero has it and she could of called and told me. I had to move to a different state to get away from people judging me because of the way you were. Some boy was not allowed to date me because his dad knew who you were. I was 14 and had a boy break up with me because of you. Can you say heart break, and you weren't even their to support me. Even thow you hate me, my dad never walked out on me. He was there, he done my hair in elementary school. He took me to the doctors when I was sick.  Because of you my dad is my hero and I thank you.

Comments (6)

  • Loonsounds@xanga

    wow, lots of people are bringing out their stuff with their moms today.


    I have mother karma too, heaps of it

  • MarnieAyn@xanga

    Wow. Great story. I'm sorry your mom wasn't there, but atleast you always have your dad right? That's how I feel. my dad is my hero too.

  • LovesNotPerfect

    @Loonsounds@xanga - I think its because moms are suppose to be those people that never turn their back on you.

    @MarnieAyn@xanga - Thanks [= Yeah my dad is the best. [=   I wouldn't be the woman i am now if i didn't have him as a dad.

  • chelseanataliex@xanga

    Wow. This was a good read. I'm sorry about your mother, I truly am.

  • Ophiuchus

    This is a good story. Sometimes it is best to just let it all out. This site is excellent for this since people wont judge you for doing just that
    Both mothers and fathers are supposed to be the rock of your foundation, when it's not there it must be really difficult. I'm sure everyone can point out a time in their life when they have had parent issues as well. You never forget it. The trick is to learn from it which it appears you have. As long as you come out of a situation where you let your guard down and get hurt and come out on top you are doing well
    Your dad sounds like a remarkable man, and one that will stay by your side forever, hopefully you will return the favor to him and keep that trait for generations
    Hope you feel better!

  • Ophiuchus

    Anytime! I don't really post my own stories on here very often, but it is very nice to read other peoples that are closely relate to mine
    I hope all is well with you!

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